my buddy

i know that bee isn't going to be small forever. i think that being at home with the kids and being immersed in their every move has allowed me to understand more completely how to savor it all. maybe i'm wrong, maybe i would feel the same no matter what. but i feel like i have a deeper understanding and value of the rapid pace in which our kids are growing up. maybe that is why i choose to spend so much time with them. i know i am not going to get it back. i know that i am lucky to have this opportunity. i am thankful every day.

as bee inches closer to five years old, things are changing. her friendships are more important to her. she is way more independent. i am mindful of this and try to give her space, while still smothering her with love every chance i get. 

sometimes when i pick bee up from school and i am a bit early i can catch her and her classmates playing on the playground. henny loves it, the more playground the better. as i approach the playground, i smile at bee, but i don't want to disturb her play or god forbid, embarrass her.

one day this week i walked up to the playground and bee just came running to me. it was like we hadn't seen each other in years. bee gave me the biggest hug and then went back to playing with her friends. when it was time to go in, she walked in with me and grabbed my hand. 

as we held hands walking down the hall, another kid asked bee to be her partner, holding out her hand to bee. bee responded to her, "my mommy is my partner."

my heart was so full at that moment. i wanted to go in each classroom we passed to announce what an amazing kid i have. 

i am so grateful for this time. i am so grateful to be able to enjoy each moment at a slow pace and to have the mindfulness to know how big these small moments are and how quickly they will pass.